Yesterday marked 117 days since our first support-raising meeting. And that was how long it took for me to become discouraged for the first time.
I had been really excited the previous day to learn we had a car provided for us in Indo (yay!!), but when Ryan and I sat down to re-do the budget yesterday, I basically just shut down. We had to move numbers around and I just became overwhelmed with the utter bigness of it all. I huffed, puffed, said short words to Ryan, and declared my hatred of money and finances.
This morning I sleepily and somewhat dutifully sat down to my coffee and Bible. I've been reading a chapter a day in Isaiah this month. (Warning: the first half of that book is pretty much doom and gloom.) But today I sat down to unveil these gems from Isaiah 26:
"You will keep in perfect peace
all who trust in you,
all whose thoughts are fixed upon you!
Trust in the Lord always,
for the Lord God is the eternal Rock.
For those who are righteous,
the way is not steep and rough.
You are a God who does what is right,
and you smooth out the path ahead of them.
Lord, we show our trust in you by obeying your laws;
our heart's desire is to glorify your name.
Lord, you will grant us peace;
all we have accomplished is really from you."
Such rich comfort from those words. My path will not be steep and rough, but smooth as long as my thoughts are fixed on the Lord. PLUS, I'm accomplishing nothing anyway; it's all God's doing. And He can just keep on doing all the hard stuff while I simply listen and obey.